The dream that I had this weekend which I will share with you on this post has changed my relationship with life and my perception of what life is. I saw myself as a tiny particle of a gigantic mystery that is Life.
In my recent dream, I had the pleasure of dancing with a spirit in the form of a goddess.
Confronted by my own trust and control issues in the beginning, I did not want to come with her. She waits and waits with her hand extended patiently, inches away from my own.
In the end, I chose to let go and I surrendered to her beauty.
She was a sultry, seductive, otherworldly creature who took my hand in all her gracefulness and majesty. She had a long, black, curly hair. Her eyes were big and brown. Her skin was pale and her lips were blood red. She had a white flower on her head. Her dress was long, burgundy, and hugging every curve of her body.
She took me to the galaxy where the music changed several times until I felt at ease in my own skin. I started dancing like nobody’s watching.
And we danced and danced.
We played with the stars using the tips of our fingers, swirling them into our own version of the milky way.
I used my hands to mold shapes of different kinds and I threw it in the air while the goddess continued to dance and watch me play.
I am floating in the most welcoming, loving, and nurturing element of all which is “space”.
The space spoke to me and said, “mold me, move through me, do whatever you want with me.”
The goddess and I danced until the music began to fade…and slowly, slowly, a force pulled us away from each other.
She was gone.
Once again, I am traveling.
I felt my feet slowly touching the ground.
Suddenly, I was in the forest…mesmerized and curious. My senses were so heightened that I could hear sounds coming from afar, and I could smell everything. I could see life coursing through the ground, pumping life on each blade of grass, up to the tallest of trees and the unseen illumination of “space” in the dark of night.
I was a wild animal walking on all fours. And I could see and feel each pore of my body breathing and corresponding with the Earth. As if we were shouting, “I’m ALIVE” with each other.
I enjoyed walking and running with life in my animal form where I was blissfully driven by such powerful instinct. I climbed the trees and I reached for the brightest stars in the sky.
I am in love and aroused by life, and once again reminded of who I am in the depth of my being, beyond the many layers I wear in my day to day existence.
When I woke up the feeling of awe, loss, and sadness immediately washed through me. Once again realizing that I am living in a concrete jungle, living amongst the dominions.
I am still silently going through the grieving process on the loss of the world that I saw, the world that once was and the world we are avoiding to meet eye to eye. We can bring it back here in the now, but it will take a lot of work.
It won’t be easy but it will be worth it.
I will never see the trees, the plants, the animals, the space, and especially us the same way again.